I keep getting the question, “why do you want to work for someone else?” The answer? I don’t want to be a CEO. I want to run marketing, it’s what I do well.

To say I’m passionate about my work is an understatement. A former colleague assigned me the mantra, “Marissa, always leave ’em wanting less.” Anyone who’s worked with me will LOL, really L.

And, I get the lure of entrepreneurship. For most of my career, I enjoyed the independence, freedom, and satisfaction of self-employment.

Now, however, I’m over it — it’s off the bucket list.

Working on a business you believe in with a team you respect is rewarding in so many ways. I loved the sense of personal satisfaction, finding my “flow” and working my butt off – fatigue, family, and fitness be damned! And, I will continue working with that ethos, it’s in my DNA.

So why, when I joined a company as interim VP of Marketing was I so thrilled that the coffee was fresh, the creamer was liquid and the printer had ink? How can I give up being the boss for a W-2 and health insurance? Because being an entrepreneur is hard, even for the smart, talented and persistent among us.

(Note: I’d rather be hung upside down by my toenails than file corporate taxes again.)

Although the entrepreneurial spirit will live inside me forever, the starry-eyed allure is gone. Now, I will be thrilled to slave away for a 20-ish, IVY league drop out who wears too much mousse and wouldn’t recognize a recession if it hit [him / her / undecided] upside the head. Or, I’d like to find a large company who needs a creative, scrappy marketer to ideate and implement ridiculously effective growth programs.

Forever Yours,

Marissa, recovering Entrepreneur

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